I don't need to think very hard to remember some of my
failures to love others, and there are surely many more such failures than my
memory retains. And each one of those is rooted in a failure to love God! One
fair way to summarize my life would be to say, "Charlie has consistently broken
the greatest commandment."
The God revealed in Jesus--the God who is really
there--takes love very seriously. Whenever I fail to love, someone He loves
suffers for it. If God is just--and He is--I am in serious trouble! I should try
my best to be more loving of course, but I will never meet His standard--the bar
is set too high for me.
But God, who always practices what He preaches, loved
me enough to suffer for my sins on the cross in the person of Jesus. He paid the
entire debt I owe for all my failures to love. His forgiveness is therefore both
just and free. I only needed to see how I had failed to love God and accept his
forgiveness-gift by asking him for it. A proper gratitude on my part will result
in a more perfect love for Jesus, which was my greatest need all along.